deadlyandvile:

Reality check.

wait it doesn’t?!?!? damn bro

hahahahahaha just kidding.

usually, being busy all the time is a pretty good thing. most people would always rather be busy than bored. but i get so busy i don’t have time to hang out with anyone - i don’t have time to hang out with the only girl i’ve been slightly interested in in a very long time, and it really really sucks because i can’t do anything about it. all i can do is watch as i drift farther away. 

this whole heartache/forever alone/loner thing is getting really old. i have no one to hold onto. i know half the time i tell myself i’m glad i’m single, but the truth is the other half is what usually occupies my mind. the half that tells me i want companionship. because i really do.

bored, just got back from seeing The Grey, eating pretzels as obnoxiously as possible. Movie was great, by the way. Fucking see it. 

Yeah. What’s up?

i wish i had a permanent cuddle buddy/girl to hang with.

ah, female companionship. i forgot what it feels like.

that’s how i’ve been feeling lately. the weekends mean so much more to me, now that i work literally all week. i appreciate time off exponentially more, and i find that i’m appreciating the people around me more as well. 

but then when the weekend’s over, another week begins and i get to relive the monotony all over again. woohoo. i manage the grocery and dairy department at a grocery store. go me. not really.

i guess i’m just writing this to get it off my chest. anyone who feels like i do?

i think it’s part seasonal annoyance (not depression) and part ‘i can’t wait for tour’. because i can’t.

hurry up, summer.