usually, being busy all the time is a pretty good thing. most people would always rather be busy than bored. but i get so busy i don’t have time to hang out with anyone - i don’t have time to hang out with the only girl i’ve been slightly interested in in a very long time, and it really really sucks because i can’t do anything about it. all i can do is watch as i drift farther away.
this whole heartache/forever alone/loner thing is getting really old. i have no one to hold onto. i know half the time i tell myself i’m glad i’m single, but the truth is the other half is what usually occupies my mind. the half that tells me i want companionship. because i really do.